We like the book of Psalms but tend to focus on only the warm, fuzzy ones; those Psalms that exalt God and sing of His praises. But nearly 60% of the Psalms are laments – people pounding on God’s chest and asking “why?”
For whatever reason we tend not to be so honest with God about those things in life that cause us to be fearful or frustrated or just plain angry. But even Jesus is brutally honest with the Father about those things that weigh on His heart.
32They went to a place called Gethsemane, and Jesus said to his disciples, “Sit here while I pray.” 33He took Peter, James and John along with him, and he began to be deeply distressed and troubled. 34“My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death,” he said to them. “Stay here and keep watch.”
35Going a little farther, he fell to the ground and prayed that if possible the hour might pass from him. 36“Abba, Father,” he said, “everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will.”
37Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “Simon,” he said to Peter, “are you asleep? Could you not keep watch for one hour? 38Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.”
39Once more he went away and prayed the same thing. 40When he came back, he again found them sleeping, because their eyes were heavy. They did not know what to say to him.
41Returning the third time, he said to them, “Are you still sleeping and resting? Enough! The hour has come. Look, the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. 42Rise! Let us go! Here comes my betrayer!” ~ Mark 14:32-42
Notice that Jesus was deeply distressed and troubled and is quoted as saying that His soul was overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Jesus experienced all the reality of our most difficult emotions. But He didn’t hide them, He talked to the Father.
Jesus even asked if there was any possible way for Him to be spared from the brutal crucifixion that He was about to face. It is both OK and healthy for us to be honest with God about our feelings and even to ask to be spared from whatever we are facing. But we also need to follow through and surrender ourselves to God’s will just as Jesus did.
Not my will but Your will be done Lord!